Well hello there! What up, my metalhead friends? So I’m back with my second personal post and I wanted to say thanks for welcoming my first post with open arms. It truly means a lot to me. So this time around, I wanted to talk about one of the major things that has been helping me handle the overactive & worrisome mind that I described in my previous post. And that thing is meditation.

Hold your horses. Don’t go anywhere. I’ll send Daredevil after you, I swear.

This is something that I hold dearly to my heart so let me tell you how it continues to help me tame my mind. You truly don’t realize how many thoughts go through your mind until you make yourself do absolutely nothing but sit still. Sure, it sounds easy to just sit still. And I encourage you to try it right now if you ACTUALLY think it’s easy. But I promise you, it’s not. There are so many thoughts that run through your head of all the things that you SHOULD be doing other than sitting still at this very moment. And there’s the challenge, right there. Resisting the urge to react to those thoughts and letting them dissolve.

How does this benefit an overactive & worrisome mind? Well, I can tell you from first hand experience that I fucking hate staying idle. I always feel like I have to be doing something to be productive. I feel like I have to complete 20 things on my daily to-do list to truly feel like I’ve made the most of my day. I’ll do unnecessary research on the most mundane tasks to see if I’m completing it in the most optimal way. When it comes to socializing and conversating with other human beings, I’ve been known to try to do research on how to create optimal interactions with certain people. Expecting to be able to control an experience with an external entity when, in reality, I have absolutely no control over it! It’s insanity, I tell ya!

Some people call me a perfectionist. And I almost took pride in that. Until eventually learning that I was actually wasting a lot of brain power on unimportant and uncontrollable things.

Learning to sit still has taught me to do away with putting the sense of urgency towards every single task in my life.

Learning to sit still has taught me that I can’t control everything in my life that I really need to work on living without expectation.

Learning to sit still has taught me the importance of giving my mind a break to just be.

I hope this brought some enlightenment to your mind and until next time…<3